Whew!

The first trimester is already over! Yes, I am 3 months pregnant already. If you didn't know, I miscarried in October at 6 weeks, so this time around, we were a little more cautious about sharing our great news with everyone.
We went to the doctor at a 10 week check-up and heard the heartbeat. Walking in the clinic was a bit scary for me- I changed clinics to one closer to my house and the first time I went there, it was to tell me I was no longer pregnant, so going through those doors again got me a little emotional- caught me off guard, I wasn't really expecting to be that overwhelmed, but I guess it was still on my mind more than I thought. I checked in, paid my co-pay and started to tear up right away, just as Kirk, unknowing my thoughts at that moment- my thoughts being- what if this one doesn't 'take' either, what if there isn't a heartbeat, how can I go through this again?- says to me- Does this place bring back bad memories?- I lost it, that was exactly my thought.
The doctor was so nice and knew the last time we saw him he delivered bad news, and knew we really wanted to hear one thing today, the heartbeat, which was strong and he gave us the OK to tell people if we had not already.
What a relief! Feeling good, other than the lazy tired feeling at this stage. A lot more queasiness, but thankfully no sickness- I swear I have an iron stomach, haven't been sick since high school spring break- no kidding.
We are so excited for our new addition. We are finding out the sex in March sometime, so I will let you know if it's pink or blue.
Santa gave Peyton a doll for Christmas, so it's helping her know "baby" and she feeds her, well, if you can eat through your eye, I guess she feeds her, and holds her upside down, tries to roll her in a blanket- she has some training to go through, but I think she'll be a great BIG SISTER.

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